Forgetting and Remembering

I have a lot of things that I want to write, but I will forget as when I had the thought or idea, it would be during my working hour or when I ride my bike.

Heck, when I started to get inspired to write poetry, sometimes it would be in the toilet.

A waste of rhythm.

Maybe I should just record myself using my phone, regardless where I am.

Maybe I should!

Maybe . . .

Insomnia!

Surprisingly, I can't sleep! xD

I ate too much during my dinner, a half chicken.

Plus my friends' food :P

I feel rather full, too full that it is not good to lay down and sleep.

I ate at 8pm and until now my tummy feels so full and it would be uncomfortable to lay down on bed and sleep.

What should I do? Maybe I should go for a walk... at night? Nahhhh.

Let's just laze around the room until I fall asleep.

Financial budgeting

I have been keeping tab on my cash flow since last year.

However I hate the fact that there was discrepancy every time I calculate my cash flow.

It is very disheartening to know that there were some missing expenses which I failed to track.

Or, someone actually stealing from me.

Do I have toyol near me?

Damn, that would be scary.

I dislike this uneasy feeling - To not knowing where the missing money went.

I wish I can remember where it went! Heck, the amount is getting bigger :(

What can I do except to be more attentive on my notes.

:(

Managerial position

What can I say.

Recently I got to know that someone who is at my age has become HR Manager.

It got me thinking of where I am now. Going to be 29 but still under fresh exec position.

Sometimes I wonder, am I doing what I am supposed to do.

Friends say that I will fare better in hospitality and services industry.

Maybe I will, maybe I will not. Another close friend of mine will be a Manager this coming February, and he is the same age as me as well.

Now, I am contemplating whether what should I do. 3 years working here.

My friend told me that if the Company doesn't promote you after 3~5 years then it's better for you to quit and find a better one.

I still have a lot of things to learn and I am staying in the same place as I want to learn and make sure I have gotten everything before I move to other department or company.

I had stop myself from going to other department as I want to learn. There are a lot of things to learn and knowledge to gain. Until then I will stay.

Should I move just for higher position?

If the time comes, I will. However, I am content now with my life.

Should I feel down and envious with my friends high position?

Absolutely not! Everyone is moving on their own pace. Everyone has their own journey. With great power comes great responsibilities.

I love my life and I am moving at a pace that I am comfortable with.

However, is it a pace that is too slow?

Maybe it is, and that's why I am changing myself. Trying to get myself straight and organized.

I had changed many things with my life recently. And I hope, it is for better.

Chapter 003 of 365

Daily Update ?

Nope. The title doesnt warrant that the update will be daily.

I as well unsure why I had put such title. It looks interesting.

As the New Year dawned, every page is worth something.

Appreciate every day as if it's the last day you will have on earth.

Appreciate it as this will be your only life on this temporal realm.

I guess everyone has forgotten that we wouldnt survive at the end of the day.

One way or another, everyone will see our maker.

Let all cherish the moment, day by day and not let it go to waste.

Let go of all the the negativity around you. Those that bound you to the earth.

Any emotion that restrict and hinder you.

Let yourself be free.

Wander the wondrous earth.

Love yourself.

New Year, New You ?

I contemplated on 31 Dec 2017.

Why do I even celebrate Gregorian Calendar New Year.

I have my own New Year that I should focus on which is Awal Muharram.

I didn't feel anything new but I felt the resolution in me.

Spoken to my Harris, my bestfriend on it.

He said he doesn't follow Gregorian Calendar New Year. He followed his Aries Astrological Sign as New Year as it is based on degree. (I didn't prod on it in more details, so I cant remember which degree to what) - Whether it's Earth to Moon or to Sun, I can't remember.

Anyhow, it is more on yourself. You don't have to wait for New Year or new month to change or to have resolution.

You can do it today, or tomorrow. The most important is the discipline and the consistency to do it.

Anyway, I am still contemplating on this matter.

2018 New Year Resolution

I had thought about it. Should I come out with new resolutions.

I had been self reflecting myself for the past few days. 

I am trying to make myself better. Turn over a new leaf.

Well, I had reorganized my room. I took out my double-decker bed out and put my mattress on the floor and my housemate lend me a banquet table to put my desktop.

The layout of my room has slightly changed. I believe it makes the space bigger; perspectively speaking.

I feel better whenever I enter my room. It is a good sign. I hope it will last forever.

More changes that I will do due to someone that I recently know. I had only spoken to him for a few days but I feel connected. In sense, he read a lot and I love and admire such people. He will find and understand the particular topic to know more. In short, he will read to know the holistic view point of the topic he is interested in. Admirable!~

Due to the exchanges happened, I feel that I want to be like him. Motivated and aspired.

He is just a normal guy, who works in a fitness gym. 

However, I am unsure whether this friendship will last as he is a passive guy. Introvert, he said.

Many things that I want to do now.

That's go back to my resolution.

2018 Resolution.

1) Read an article a day.

2) Accomplish double the KMs in 2018 - 880KM.

3) Learn a martial arts.

4) Learn/Relearn a language.

5) Start back on poetry & novel writing.