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(old notes from facebook)
loved to see that all of his friends already moved on.
Looking at the past as some nostalgic memories that they might want to relive in, looking at the present as a gift of life and seeing the future as a challenge to continue living in this world as we meet, talk, and apart with each others.
Each second we will miss them, each minute we will wish that we can spend our time talking to them and be at their side.
Those memories of pain and suffering, of joy and excitement will be forever dwell in the mind and never be forgotten.
How I wish to put all our memories into pictures that I could hang on the walls and put into my photo albums.
To cherish it even more, and let it be seen by everyone that might look at it. Let them know that I am proud of knowing you. Whoever you are, Wherever you come from, Whatever your interests, Whichever your status would be, Whenever you came to my life, Why ever you stay beside me or against me, and How ever we be in touch with each other.
God bless you all my friends, no matter how far are you from me, how long have we been friend and know each others, how much you love or hate me, how stable and solid our friendship may seems to be, how did we know each other, how little we talk or spoke, how many memories we have created together,whether we have met or not, and how close or tight we are in this friendship.
May we be in contact with each other forever and ever.
May we meet again, my fellow friends.
And if we havent met yet, may someday we do meet and create memories.
LOVE,
Azri
Well, if you read from my note in facebook, there would be pictures of some of you guys if I ever took any...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
L.O.V.E (old revelation as well)
I have nothing new to update, so this one is another old collection of mine... hope you guys love it...
I wonder...
Is there any differences between the love of blood and relation with the love of friend and lover?
And how does it differ?
Does it make us more prone to do something for it than the rest?
Does it require us to make sacrifice?
And how do we know if we love that person for the TRUE LOVE itself not for the LOVE of friendship...
Do we will love his/her companionship when the person is beside us?
Are we going to do exceptional things for them?
Is there no equality in love towards mankind?
Have I been blinded by my mind that I cannot find TRUE LOVE?
Have I adopt communism in my heart that I project it into the abstract understanding of LOVE?
I always love my friends equally, and humbly execute any favours that they have requested upon me without delay as I always do for my own family as I appreciate all of those who live around me their behaviours and personalities.
I cherished every moment I spend with all of you and even mathematician cannot make estimation and percentage out of it.
Thus. coming back to my question, can I seek among you the TRUE LOVE of mine with this equality at heart?
I love some companionship, can it be develop into LOVE like the one in the movie? so romantic and fantasize by everyone.
Or is it going to be only a commitment relationship of partners without the involvement of love as they love the present of the other being beside them?
Is it really important to find the TRUE and ONLY ONE amongst the million and billion of people to live and die together with?
Can it be someone sitting beside you or someone you already know and hate? or admire and even have a crush for that matter. Can it even be someone that already die?
A question as well, can it be possible for those who cannot feel the existence of love to have the other
half of them die without their knowing? That is why they cannot go through sensation of love...
Is the sensation of love is nearly the same with the people who is capable of hearing the notes...
Can someone be tone deaf but in the context of love? Love deaf, or heart deaf?
For that, I am sitting(literally) here, lost and ponder, maybe forever, to uncover this love mystery.
I can grasp the abstract meaning of it, as well as everyone understand it, but lost in really grasping it in its true manner which is to go through it by myself and see it with my own naked eyes, without anyone experiences or understanding of love tell me how its really feel...
Maybe as well, I think to much of it and that make its harder for me to find it as people always say that "Love comes from the heart" and "Love is blind" and such.
Thus implicating that, in order to love we cannot think just use your emotion and heart to search for it.
With this, I am asking you, can someone who always love their friends equally regardless, find true love in the amidst of blindness and friendliness?
I wonder...
Is there any differences between the love of blood and relation with the love of friend and lover?
And how does it differ?
Does it make us more prone to do something for it than the rest?
Does it require us to make sacrifice?
And how do we know if we love that person for the TRUE LOVE itself not for the LOVE of friendship...
Do we will love his/her companionship when the person is beside us?
Are we going to do exceptional things for them?
Is there no equality in love towards mankind?
Have I been blinded by my mind that I cannot find TRUE LOVE?
Have I adopt communism in my heart that I project it into the abstract understanding of LOVE?
I always love my friends equally, and humbly execute any favours that they have requested upon me without delay as I always do for my own family as I appreciate all of those who live around me their behaviours and personalities.
I cherished every moment I spend with all of you and even mathematician cannot make estimation and percentage out of it.
Thus. coming back to my question, can I seek among you the TRUE LOVE of mine with this equality at heart?
I love some companionship, can it be develop into LOVE like the one in the movie? so romantic and fantasize by everyone.
Or is it going to be only a commitment relationship of partners without the involvement of love as they love the present of the other being beside them?
Is it really important to find the TRUE and ONLY ONE amongst the million and billion of people to live and die together with?
Can it be someone sitting beside you or someone you already know and hate? or admire and even have a crush for that matter. Can it even be someone that already die?
A question as well, can it be possible for those who cannot feel the existence of love to have the other
half of them die without their knowing? That is why they cannot go through sensation of love...
Is the sensation of love is nearly the same with the people who is capable of hearing the notes...
Can someone be tone deaf but in the context of love? Love deaf, or heart deaf?
For that, I am sitting(literally) here, lost and ponder, maybe forever, to uncover this love mystery.
I can grasp the abstract meaning of it, as well as everyone understand it, but lost in really grasping it in its true manner which is to go through it by myself and see it with my own naked eyes, without anyone experiences or understanding of love tell me how its really feel...
Maybe as well, I think to much of it and that make its harder for me to find it as people always say that "Love comes from the heart" and "Love is blind" and such.
Thus implicating that, in order to love we cannot think just use your emotion and heart to search for it.
With this, I am asking you, can someone who always love their friends equally regardless, find true love in the amidst of blindness and friendliness?
Went to the beach in early morning... :D ... Found shocking truth about oneself... XD (old revelation)
This is an old revelation from facebook's note about myself that I wrote a long time ago...I just want to put it in my blog so people could read it... :D
Well I had my early walk today, thought of doing some jogging and exercise and I did for awhile...
But I only ran for a few minutes and most of the times I was talking to myself... I had my reflective moment again, since I have not done it for quite awhile.
You know something, I was very DAMN demotivated today. The reflective moment that I had really gave me a pang of emptiness. I was REALLY REALLY setback after realising that I am nobody in this world, and my life is such insignificant that I dont think anyone will remember me if I die.
One thing that kept bugging me is that, I feel worthless and useless. The feeling is such monstrous and unbearable and it keeps taunting me back again and again on my way back home.
I know I felt this before, but not THIS HEAVY and MALICIOUS. It struck deep into my heart and taint my ego.
I cannot bear the thought of having someone beside me as I cannot see my "uniqueness" or the thing that I can offer to my friends and companions and anyone around me, that has spoken to me.
I really regret that I think of myself and on what I am good in...I know that I am all rounded person in doing thing, but I am just all rounded person on the surface and not in detail and in depth... Like those who are really good in their thing... I am not someone who can focus on one thing only...
FOR REAL, I love in everything that people do, sprinting, basketball, writing novel, writing poem, diving and swimming, talking in other languages, learning stuffs and something new, singing, dancing, videio making, script writing, editing, martial arts learning, acting, directing, supervising, cooking, cleaning, interacting with other people, making love, flirting, wooing, observing, debating, arguing, listening, discussing, typing, organising, volleyball, bowling, archery, chess, painting, drawing, fashioning, designing things, manufacturing, DJing, Hiphopping, Breakdancing, Rapping, muscle building, hunting, fishing, consulting, advising, mentoring, teaching, coaching, tutoring, servicing, delivering, clienting, preaching, guarding, walking, thinking, researching, dissecting, gymnastic-ing and MORE AND MORE... I could go on and on about what I would like to do .. that I love to do... Heck, I even join nearly 10 clubs in my first semester in University for my own love towards it, and HELL I would join more if I have more money!!!! XD...
Anyway, that besides the point... The point that I want to make here is that, I splashed my thought and effort in all things that I never had a chance to actually know more about it... Now, I know and I feel regrets that I do not have any achievement that I am really proud so far thus making me feel insignificant and doubt whether I will be someone successful in the future. With the current achievement, I might as well die now and save all everyone butt from being annoyed by my insecurity in life... LIKE, who wants to listen and read this anyway.
Now, seeing people success in doing things that I love, make my heart throbs too harsh and bad. I wish that, things turned out to be different. I wish, JUST wish... I wish... I am MORE conscientiousness in life...
One thing that I hate is I am not discipline enough and I do not think it would be possible for me to change my personality, my trait. CAN IT BE FEND OFF? I hope so, but I am not strong to change THAT fact since I am just 25% in conscientiousness...
Yup, thats all I want to talk about... THANK YOU for reading...
Below is my traits, XD
Openness94%
This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 94.5% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is far more intellectually curious and sensitive to beauty than most. You might say that your beliefs are individualistic and frequently drift towards the unconventional, and that you enjoy your imagination and the exciting places it takes you!
Conscientiousness25%
This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 1.5% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is impulsive and whimsical, and fine with it! From your responses it appears that you would say that sometimes decisions need to be made quickly, and that you make them quicker than most! You would say you are zany, colourful, and just generally great fun to be with... as long as someone isn't relying on you to get some work done.
Extraversion56%
This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 34.5% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who prefers low-key social occasions, with a few close friends. You might say that it's not that you are afraid of large parties; they're just not that fun for you.
Agreeableness81%
This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 88.5% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is extremely easy to get along with. Your responses suggest that you would say you are considerate, friendly, generous and helpful and you consider most other people to be thoroughly decent and trustworthy.
Neuroticism (Emotional stability)56%
This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 78.8% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is generally calm. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can feel emotional or stressed out by some experiences, however your feelings tend to be warranted by the situation.
Go here if you want yours:
http://apps.facebook.com/mypersonality/newuser.php?ref=9&_fb_q=1
Well I had my early walk today, thought of doing some jogging and exercise and I did for awhile...
But I only ran for a few minutes and most of the times I was talking to myself... I had my reflective moment again, since I have not done it for quite awhile.
You know something, I was very DAMN demotivated today. The reflective moment that I had really gave me a pang of emptiness. I was REALLY REALLY setback after realising that I am nobody in this world, and my life is such insignificant that I dont think anyone will remember me if I die.
One thing that kept bugging me is that, I feel worthless and useless. The feeling is such monstrous and unbearable and it keeps taunting me back again and again on my way back home.
I know I felt this before, but not THIS HEAVY and MALICIOUS. It struck deep into my heart and taint my ego.
I cannot bear the thought of having someone beside me as I cannot see my "uniqueness" or the thing that I can offer to my friends and companions and anyone around me, that has spoken to me.
I really regret that I think of myself and on what I am good in...I know that I am all rounded person in doing thing, but I am just all rounded person on the surface and not in detail and in depth... Like those who are really good in their thing... I am not someone who can focus on one thing only...
FOR REAL, I love in everything that people do, sprinting, basketball, writing novel, writing poem, diving and swimming, talking in other languages, learning stuffs and something new, singing, dancing, videio making, script writing, editing, martial arts learning, acting, directing, supervising, cooking, cleaning, interacting with other people, making love, flirting, wooing, observing, debating, arguing, listening, discussing, typing, organising, volleyball, bowling, archery, chess, painting, drawing, fashioning, designing things, manufacturing, DJing, Hiphopping, Breakdancing, Rapping, muscle building, hunting, fishing, consulting, advising, mentoring, teaching, coaching, tutoring, servicing, delivering, clienting, preaching, guarding, walking, thinking, researching, dissecting, gymnastic-ing and MORE AND MORE... I could go on and on about what I would like to do .. that I love to do... Heck, I even join nearly 10 clubs in my first semester in University for my own love towards it, and HELL I would join more if I have more money!!!! XD...
Anyway, that besides the point... The point that I want to make here is that, I splashed my thought and effort in all things that I never had a chance to actually know more about it... Now, I know and I feel regrets that I do not have any achievement that I am really proud so far thus making me feel insignificant and doubt whether I will be someone successful in the future. With the current achievement, I might as well die now and save all everyone butt from being annoyed by my insecurity in life... LIKE, who wants to listen and read this anyway.
Now, seeing people success in doing things that I love, make my heart throbs too harsh and bad. I wish that, things turned out to be different. I wish, JUST wish... I wish... I am MORE conscientiousness in life...
One thing that I hate is I am not discipline enough and I do not think it would be possible for me to change my personality, my trait. CAN IT BE FEND OFF? I hope so, but I am not strong to change THAT fact since I am just 25% in conscientiousness...
Yup, thats all I want to talk about... THANK YOU for reading...
Below is my traits, XD
Openness94%
This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 94.5% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is far more intellectually curious and sensitive to beauty than most. You might say that your beliefs are individualistic and frequently drift towards the unconventional, and that you enjoy your imagination and the exciting places it takes you!
Conscientiousness25%
This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 1.5% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is impulsive and whimsical, and fine with it! From your responses it appears that you would say that sometimes decisions need to be made quickly, and that you make them quicker than most! You would say you are zany, colourful, and just generally great fun to be with... as long as someone isn't relying on you to get some work done.
Extraversion56%
This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 34.5% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who prefers low-key social occasions, with a few close friends. You might say that it's not that you are afraid of large parties; they're just not that fun for you.
Agreeableness81%
This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 88.5% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is extremely easy to get along with. Your responses suggest that you would say you are considerate, friendly, generous and helpful and you consider most other people to be thoroughly decent and trustworthy.
Neuroticism (Emotional stability)56%
This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 78.8% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is generally calm. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can feel emotional or stressed out by some experiences, however your feelings tend to be warranted by the situation.
Go here if you want yours:
http://apps.facebook.com/mypersonality/newuser.php?ref=9&_fb_q=1
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