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I never felt this way before. Maybe I know that I do not want to go back and study the courses. But, I feel butterfly in my stomach. I am scared to see my result. Even though, this is not the final result. However, the feeling of failing is out of question. What I want to do now is searching for work not study. I need to get away from the study life for awhile.
Anyway, I still have to face the truth, my future, my predicament. I still have to open the portal and see how am I fairing. But, I could not bear to know if I fail. So, I am not sure whether I want to know or not.
Regardless how and what I want to do afterward, I still need to know to satisfy my hunger of curiosity... I am anxious. I am eager. I am just hoping that I will pass.
Wish me luck...
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Weakness_Exposure_Publicly
We rely on our strength too much. We never want to show our weakness.
There is no one in this world would hide behind one's weakness. Always behind one's strength, because it will give you a boost of confident and capacity in doing anything.
Have you ever found anyone that would blindly walk into the street and expose oneself? NO... Everyone wants to see one's strength.
What's more, if you have a partner/soul mate [ or what-not-you-call-them ], surely they would look pass of all the flaws because of the strength. No one wants to hinge on the weakness.
In olden days, tear had been seen as a weak sign thus has been banned in the male dictionary.
Anyway, thank God in these days, male species can shed out tear, if not, I am not sure how can I express my sadness... ^_^
Coming back to my point, we will do what we can to make people to remember us for our strength, not our weakness. Because we want for them to remember us for the best of us.
Do not get me wrong, there are some people out there that love to venture into new things, and be vulnerable. The reason being is because, they know what they are doing and the thing that they are getting themselves into. Plus, they have the pleasure in doing it. So, let them be for the time being.
In our life, we try to do what we can to change out weakness into strength.
Furthermore, we try our best not to look back on our weakness, flash on a memory of our weak time. NO, these are not the time that we want to ponder our valuable time with. We want to see back on the best memory that we have. The time we share with our friends. The joy. The fun. The ecstasy. The thing that will make us grin.
We shun ourselves for our weakness but shine ourselves for our strength.
There is no one in this world would hide behind one's weakness. Always behind one's strength, because it will give you a boost of confident and capacity in doing anything.
Have you ever found anyone that would blindly walk into the street and expose oneself? NO... Everyone wants to see one's strength.
What's more, if you have a partner/soul mate [ or what-not-you-call-them ], surely they would look pass of all the flaws because of the strength. No one wants to hinge on the weakness.
In olden days, tear had been seen as a weak sign thus has been banned in the male dictionary.
Anyway, thank God in these days, male species can shed out tear, if not, I am not sure how can I express my sadness... ^_^
Coming back to my point, we will do what we can to make people to remember us for our strength, not our weakness. Because we want for them to remember us for the best of us.
Do not get me wrong, there are some people out there that love to venture into new things, and be vulnerable. The reason being is because, they know what they are doing and the thing that they are getting themselves into. Plus, they have the pleasure in doing it. So, let them be for the time being.
In our life, we try to do what we can to change out weakness into strength.
Furthermore, we try our best not to look back on our weakness, flash on a memory of our weak time. NO, these are not the time that we want to ponder our valuable time with. We want to see back on the best memory that we have. The time we share with our friends. The joy. The fun. The ecstasy. The thing that will make us grin.
We shun ourselves for our weakness but shine ourselves for our strength.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Sleeping... Insomnia ... ... ... Night... ... ...
How and what to say... I have ambivalence attraction towards night.!! Why is it easy for me to sleep in day time.. but not at night.. My eyes are wide awake... I just wish that I could sleep as easily as I had the last time...
I hate night... I hate insomnia...
Do I need to express myself more.. .with poetry maybe... hahaha
Recollection of comments...
LOLx... I do not know why... but what I know is that I do love to reminiscence on some random stuff... Now, the random stuffs would be the comments that have been written on my posts.. hahaha
Yeah, I always imagine that nobody is going to read my posts... but when I reread all of the comments, I realize that not all of the readers are people that I closely know...
P/S ... I cannot tell much whether I really know you just based on your name account... well, I do know some but not all.. yeah... I am really grateful for having you guys as my readers.. hehehe
Anyway, I felt that I did manage to affect each of my readers' life.
Thus, I just hope that I can entertain my reader's life and if possible do it daily. Something to think about, or to talk about... Yeah... Just hope to see you guys soon... ^_^
Yeah, I always imagine that nobody is going to read my posts... but when I reread all of the comments, I realize that not all of the readers are people that I closely know...
P/S ... I cannot tell much whether I really know you just based on your name account... well, I do know some but not all.. yeah... I am really grateful for having you guys as my readers.. hehehe
Anyway, I felt that I did manage to affect each of my readers' life.
Thus, I just hope that I can entertain my reader's life and if possible do it daily. Something to think about, or to talk about... Yeah... Just hope to see you guys soon... ^_^
Movie with Subtitles
I love watching movies....
but, I hate whenever I open up HBO or CINEMAX, or whatsnot channel, and there is a subtitle ... No offense, I do not hate subtitle, its just that, I cannot focus on the movie if my eyes kept rolling down to read the title... Oh God, how annoying that is...
I will surely turn the subs off, but unfortunately, some do not have the off button.
Besides, I hate it if the Movie that I watch in English and the subs is in Malay. Well, no offense, I kinda do not want to read Malay subs because it would be funny... I know I might learn a new word translation but some of them might just get on my nerve if the translation is wrong...
I would prefer to read the English subs because some times, you cannot hear it clearly, especially if they are using a thick accent or colloquial words...
Anyway, just another random thing that I annoy me while watching Movie is when someone ask a lot of question.. What the hell with that? ...
E.G.. hey hey, this guy is bla bla bla right??? Isnt he also bla bla bla???
Wait, what happened here? bla bla bla????
SERIOUSLY!!! I could not focus on the freaking movie if you kept talking...
It is even worse if someone came by and start to the next person sitting near me, and talking about some UNRELATED stuff.. ahahahah... I would be REALLY IRRITATED....
YEAH!!!~~~ would not you feel it as well...
Anyway, that is all... Random annoyance in daily life... yeah!!!
but, I hate whenever I open up HBO or CINEMAX, or whatsnot channel, and there is a subtitle ... No offense, I do not hate subtitle, its just that, I cannot focus on the movie if my eyes kept rolling down to read the title... Oh God, how annoying that is...
I will surely turn the subs off, but unfortunately, some do not have the off button.
Besides, I hate it if the Movie that I watch in English and the subs is in Malay. Well, no offense, I kinda do not want to read Malay subs because it would be funny... I know I might learn a new word translation but some of them might just get on my nerve if the translation is wrong...
I would prefer to read the English subs because some times, you cannot hear it clearly, especially if they are using a thick accent or colloquial words...
Anyway, just another random thing that I annoy me while watching Movie is when someone ask a lot of question.. What the hell with that? ...
E.G.. hey hey, this guy is bla bla bla right??? Isnt he also bla bla bla???
Wait, what happened here? bla bla bla????
SERIOUSLY!!! I could not focus on the freaking movie if you kept talking...
It is even worse if someone came by and start to the next person sitting near me, and talking about some UNRELATED stuff.. ahahahah... I would be REALLY IRRITATED....
YEAH!!!~~~ would not you feel it as well...
Anyway, that is all... Random annoyance in daily life... yeah!!!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Jumpstarting my life
Well, I would say that I have a lot of prerequisite that I have to meet before I could actually do anything productive. . .
People always say that I am a lazy bum who always love to play games. However, I would like to say that you are WRONG ... in a certain way.... hahahahh
LOLx, I wouldnt say that I am totally a hardworking guy who loves to do this and that. I just feel that I need the feeling, the mood, the energy, the motivation in doing it. I could not just JUMP into something without any emotion... It is NOT ME...
I kinda would say that I am a bit perfectionist freak and neat freak as well. But, I will not say that I am 100% can be categorized as them.
The reason I said/wrote that I am them is because, I could not do anything productive if the place is not conducive.
I.E if the room is in total mess.
Surely, I would not be able to do any work right. The desire would not just be there. HECK, even right now I could not be anymore productive then I could as I still cannot settle in into my room. Should I gave you the reason????
Okay, the reason being is because I cannot organize my stuff.. especially the BOOKS!!!!!!!!!! there are too many of them I cannot do anything with it. even reading, as I cannot find a place to put them. Thus, thats why I had a thought of creating a small library in my room which cannot be execute yet without any money.. As I need to buy a shelf for them... hahaha..... Oh God, dont let me talk about my clothes.... >_< too much as well. I cannot imagine how am I gonna fit it in my room. Its enough that I have a small room for myself, now I need to make a space for my clothes....! GOD, help me!...
Now, I will just make ado with what I can do in my daily basis life. It would not be any productive within any time soon. I might not be able to do any routine, or read books, translation or writing anything...
Even to write this blog needs all of my mental energy as I have to push myself in writing it...
I got to tell ya. I have a lot to write since last Friday, it just I cannot write it for some reason.... [it has been given above] ...
A few preview on what I should have written, ... Friday realization... Tonight, Last Night and Tomorrow Night analogy...
hmmm, what else, I kinda have forgotten about all ... hahaha... Oh yeah, ...
about opening another newer blog.. hahaha... this one just to tackle something basic like the different between bill and receipt... confrontation and avoidance... lend and borrow... I might even include the Night analogy in here.. I am not sure yet where it will go from there later... I have to think more about it....
Anyway, in a nearly related news, I have opened my other blog. .hahaha.. it has been officially opened. but I have not done anything much in it since I just use the basic template and all. So, not as great as you can see now.. even this blog is still mundane since I cannot do anything about the template and the design.... hahaha
anyway, I will just update you more on anything in th near future...
Until then... Hasta luego ....
People always say that I am a lazy bum who always love to play games. However, I would like to say that you are WRONG ... in a certain way.... hahahahh
LOLx, I wouldnt say that I am totally a hardworking guy who loves to do this and that. I just feel that I need the feeling, the mood, the energy, the motivation in doing it. I could not just JUMP into something without any emotion... It is NOT ME...
I kinda would say that I am a bit perfectionist freak and neat freak as well. But, I will not say that I am 100% can be categorized as them.
The reason I said/wrote that I am them is because, I could not do anything productive if the place is not conducive.
I.E if the room is in total mess.
Surely, I would not be able to do any work right. The desire would not just be there. HECK, even right now I could not be anymore productive then I could as I still cannot settle in into my room. Should I gave you the reason????
Okay, the reason being is because I cannot organize my stuff.. especially the BOOKS!!!!!!!!!! there are too many of them I cannot do anything with it. even reading, as I cannot find a place to put them. Thus, thats why I had a thought of creating a small library in my room which cannot be execute yet without any money.. As I need to buy a shelf for them... hahaha..... Oh God, dont let me talk about my clothes.... >_< too much as well. I cannot imagine how am I gonna fit it in my room. Its enough that I have a small room for myself, now I need to make a space for my clothes....! GOD, help me!...
Now, I will just make ado with what I can do in my daily basis life. It would not be any productive within any time soon. I might not be able to do any routine, or read books, translation or writing anything...
Even to write this blog needs all of my mental energy as I have to push myself in writing it...
I got to tell ya. I have a lot to write since last Friday, it just I cannot write it for some reason.... [it has been given above] ...
A few preview on what I should have written, ... Friday realization... Tonight, Last Night and Tomorrow Night analogy...
hmmm, what else, I kinda have forgotten about all ... hahaha... Oh yeah, ...
about opening another newer blog.. hahaha... this one just to tackle something basic like the different between bill and receipt... confrontation and avoidance... lend and borrow... I might even include the Night analogy in here.. I am not sure yet where it will go from there later... I have to think more about it....
Anyway, in a nearly related news, I have opened my other blog. .hahaha.. it has been officially opened. but I have not done anything much in it since I just use the basic template and all. So, not as great as you can see now.. even this blog is still mundane since I cannot do anything about the template and the design.... hahaha
anyway, I will just update you more on anything in th near future...
Until then... Hasta luego ....
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